meditate His kindness.

“Ingatlah perbuatan-perbuatan ajaib yang dilakukan-Nya, mujizat-mujizat-Nya dan penghukuman-penghukuman yang diucapkan-Nya” 1 taw 16:12
And kalau di bahasa inggris,
“Study GOD and his strength, seek his presence day and night;
Remember all the wonders he performed, the miracles and judgments that came out of his mouth.”

Ini bukan pertama kalinya gw denger nih ayat, tapi sekali lagi gw bener2 diinget utk slalu ingat smua kebaikanNya. Yes. All of them. Its something that seems so cliché and easy for us to do, but actually its not. Do I remember all His goodness that He has given me last month? What about last year, what miracles has He done? Or lets say 5 years ago. Apa iya gw masih ingat semuanya.
Gw rasa ngga. Dan gw baru nyadar setiap kali gw ngalamin masalah, gw bisa down banget and skarang gw tau kenapa. I don’t think I actually remember what He has done in my life in the past.
Nah coba, if for instance I remember all that lows and highs that I’ve been through, and I’ve managed to go through the lows because of Him, seandainya ada masalah lagi, why cant I just believe that He’ll bring me up again just like always. Ya kan?
Why do I have to doubt Him, knowing that in the passed He has never for once neglected me. Maybe I have felt that He has, but afterwards I knew that He was just on his way to pick me up again.

Now, I guess it really is time to remember all his goodness (from the small ones to the major ones)
- was late to work today. Was really worried that the bus will come late as well. But guess what, I was late, but I was early compared to the others. So yeah, He didn’t let me down.
- Free magazines? Yupp,, got’em for free :D thanx to quynh,, got aroung 15 mags for free.. who & shop till you drop!! xP
- Water bills! Dunno why, but it turns out I haven’t paid the water bills for 1 year!! We just found out last week!! But it’s so weird how in their system, it just shows that we only needed to pay $26.00!!! that’s unbelievable!! Totally unbelievable.. I guess God knows that we just don’t have the budget now :P
- Coco.. I had my hopes down on Him.. but he’s healed now!! Thanks God.. but we should’ve known that He will. Coz coco did swallow one whole mango, and somehow a couple of months later he vomited them out (just before we were gonna bring him to the vet for the 2nd time).. and meeco!! The doctors had no hope for him.. but after the operation it turns out he could see,, both eyes!! God has done wonderful stuff in our lovely dogs =D
- Dad,, what else could I say,, yes his cholesterol was high,, but the test showed more than that.. we thought he had to get an operation,, and he was supposed to I guess. But so ironically after his last consultation with the doctor, they said that he just needed to change his diet.. that’s surprisingly weird. Happy tho!
- Apartment?! Yes!! He provided us the best one at the best time.. after all the worries that we had, he actually gave us a brand new apartment close to to the station and still in the city =))
That’s just a lil bit of here and there..from this year only,, the list could go on and on and on if I talked about the past year..

Well for me personally.. it’s a miracle when God send people in my life when I needed encouragements,, yes I was down a couple of weeks ago, and now I have my hopes high again.. I really thank Him for the strength and all..
My health,, oohh I really thought I needed to get operation for the double vision sight I was having,, but interestingly, when I didn’t worry that much, He healed my vision and I totally forgot that I had spend one-week with double vision =))
My school,, I guess he has been providing me with the best one for me all along.. I did my first year in Jkt, which saved me about $4,000 in school fees and not to mention the living cost in melb,, so that’s save around $10,000 more.. and I had no trouble transferring it all and It didn’t waste any of my time.. so I knew He interfere with that .. and what about when I moved to SMA 8,, never thought I was gonna go there, it was just out of my league,, but somehow it went really smoothly..

okay,.,, its gonna be forever for me to talk about His goodness.. the fact is He has been good. He has always been, whether i realized it or not..
but just need to remind myself of this every single day..
and what ever happens, i know im walking closer to His promise, rite? Amen!
just feel so blessed at the moment,, i just hope i'll remember this every minute of the day.