featured friends.

you know those featured friends features in friendster right?
i hope you do x)
yeah well, i know most of you would not bother in changing them, but im the person that does change them and put my top 6 people there. *yeah you lucky six gals =))
it would be great to know that you're someone's featured friends. my 2 closest friends put me as theirs, the others just dont use the feature. so i cant blame them =)

Well, a couple of months ago, i was put as one of the featured friends for 3 different guys (yes, that's becoz they had feelings for me). It was really odd, cause i felt that i didnt know them that much, and they dont even know me that much as well (except for one of them, since i knew him eight years ago). But yeah, it was weird to be put as their featured friends.. really honoured,, but weird.
and i knew that they put me there deliberately, not because of the automatic featured friends by friendster (cause you could see from the updates that they changed the featured friends).
As some of you may know, i pulled myself away from those guys, since that was the only thing i could do *got no feelings for 'em, man!* and eventually, one by one, they erased me from their featured friend. It had to happen someday, and that day had come. It was suprisingly a bit sad actually.. weird huh? haha

one guy put me out of his featured friends this feb. it was weird when i saw his profile page. I knew that it was bound to happen, but still, it felt weird. sad in a way, knowing that i wasnt his featured friend anymore.

the second guy changed his featured friend last month. i was shocked as well when i didnt see my pic there anymore, cause my picture just strikes out in his featured friends. I was the odd one out there (dunt ask why, it'll be too obvious). I knew i didnt like this guy, but its sad knowing that he's moved on as well =) im just being selfish i know.

The third guy updated his just yesterday. yes! he was in the updated friends bit, and it was written that he updated his featured friends. he used to have only 5 friends put up, with me being the only girl. so i got curious when FS said that he updated his. It turns out i was replaced *again* hehe. my name wasn't there anymore. But i guessed i knew it'll happen. It was obvious to him that i had no feelings, and yeah its time for him to forget me.
*then why do i feel sad.. again?

man, what's with girls? whats with me?!
im totally being so selfish. i had not liked those guys, yet i feel sad when they have moved on to forget me. i should be happy, right?
well i am,, the fact that i dont have to reply to their messages anymore..
but i guess it's always nice knowing that someone out there really admires you.

i just hope that i also admire the next guy who admires me. =)
and then I will be put as his featured friends. the only one ;) hehe