turning point

minggu lalu gw lagi sering denger istilah ini: Turning point.
gara2 winter camp and manifest, temen gw sering ngomong ke anak2 teens ttg 2 event tersebut (anak2 teens, di postan berikut gw jelasin deh yah..)
yah untuk sekedar promosiin event2 ini, temen2 gw kasih testi2 ttg acara2 tsebut.
misalnya yah: "YeaH, you guys should come to winter camp!! Last year's camp was the turning point for me!!"
atau
"Come to Manifest guys!! You should come, you wont regret it!! Last year's one was Andrew's turning point."

gara2 keseringan denger istilah "Turning point" itu, gw jadi mikir. When was my turning point??
nah loh.. gw ga bisa inget 1 significant event that totally changed my life. gw langsung worry gitu. Jangan2 gw belum ngalamin yg namanya turning point? Kalo emang belum, apa gw masih hidup djalan yg salah?
then i start to do a bit or reminiscing.
i knew God every since i was a kid. Ortu gw udah slalu ngajakin ke gereja dll, and dari kecil kita slalu doa bareng, dibiasain. gw aja mulai bersaat teduh sejak SD.
tapi yah itu emang karena kebawa orang tua. SMP gw mulai ngelayanin Tuhan, aktif di gereja. walopun tetep ngelakuin dosa. terus lulus SMA gw bertobat lagi. apa itu turning point gw? tapi gw juga gak drastis berubah pas itu. masih aja ada pergumulan2 sendiri. terus kapan donk turning point buat gw???

Sampe skarang gw gak tau kapan atau dimana turning point gw. Tapi yg gw yakinin setiap kali gw dateng k Tuhan, gw slalu diubahkan sedikit demi sedikit into the image of God. I don't know whether my preception is right/wrong, but i believe that i don't need a certain event/time where God dramatically changes me 180 degrees. I was called and am saved. fullstop. and ever since i've been saved, i'm in the process of being more like Christ. My turning point was when i believed and accepted Christ. Sp that would be when I was just 12 years old - when my journey started with Him.

So i dunno whether this year's winter camp, last year's camp, this year's manifest, last year's manifest changed me into a different person or not. But i know that ever single encounter i have with Him, i'm running towards Him more and more.