2oo7 - o8

Lagi-lagi setaun udah berlalu lagi..
Gilaaaa, so fast man.. this year I turned twenty.. hehe.. tpi ud kebiasa dehh..

2007:
- it’s a year I turned twenty!!! Haha I still cant let go of this one.. im missing my teenage age xp
- a year that I started without hope. But rather I let myself be depressed.
- a year that I promise God I’m gonna trust my life to Him completely
- a year where I tried to open my heart and let people actually fill my life, instead of closing my hearts for them protecting myself from being hurt
- a year where I gain many new friends.. new close friends.. church + uni
- a year where God restored my heart.. help me get through all the bitterness and hatred
- a year I got a co-op job which seemed so impossible for international students
- a year I started to love ministering, not to find human’s attention, but ministering with purpose, bringing a difference

tpi Ntah kenapa tahun ini I feel like I didn’t achieve anything yet.. well I guess I did achive some stuff, but it still feels less than what I expected. I dunno what, but I can just feel it..
*no, bukan ttg pacar.. itu sih pilihan gw mo jadian ato gak*

that’s why im gonna write down all my targets for 2oo8..
not a new year resolution than I break all the time, but I really do wanna achieve something extraordinary next year. Im not gonna settle for second best and that’s in every aspect of my life.

But Somehow, im scared facing next year. 2008.
1) my job, even tho my colleagues are great, but I dunt feel peace there,, dunno why. And I’ve been think about nanti klo udah lulus, I wanna get out, but they’ve been so nice.. and I dunno if I have to stay there for my PR..
2) my financial planning diploma.. I think I made the wrong choice in taking this diploma.. it’s not helping me getting to my purpose,, its more like wasting my time..
3) my economics & finance degree.. the co-op presentation.. duhh,, Tuhan beneran dagdigdug nih sama ini…si iron herbs aja juga belon nyamperin gw di tempat kerja…
4) graduation?? Setelah graduation apa?? Di australi atau di indo?? PR kah?

Duh klo dipikir2 byk bgt yg udh harus gw mulai pikirin.. [padahal pacar gak ada, tpi kok kayaknya ud byk banget yg harus dipikirin… another sign that I dunt have the time for a relationship yet..]

I need to find my purpose in life first.
Im not sure what it is, I’ve been asking God and tryna put all the pieces together, but they just don’t match up and there are still missing pieces..
I have so many dreams, but sometimes there are just too many dreams that I don’t think I can do them all. Bingung deh nii…
Ga jelas juga knapa nulis ini hehe..

Kyaknya mau tulis di diary dulu ajaa de. Terlalu personal.