9/11

Gue gak tau yah banyak orang sadar atau nggak. Tapi hari ini tuh sebenernya the 6th Annivesary of 11th September 2001 alias 9/11 tragedy.

Gue awalnya juga gak sadar, masa sih? 6 tahun yg lalu kah?? Man, so fast!

We see how the world has changed completely after the 9/11 [read: nine-one-one] tragedy. Every country is just too over-protective, keeps on suspecting others, its just so weird.

But as time goes on, we actually get use to that. Not globally, no. Im not talking about countries against other countries, but im talking in out individual lives.

Gak tau sih, tpi kalo hidup gw, gw emang jadi terbiasa nggak percaya ama orang lain.
Bisa dihitung pake jari berapa orang yg gw bisa bener2 'pour my heart out to'.
Klo dipikir2 emang gak ada hub-nya sama skali sih sama 9/11. Maybe its just the way i was brought up, or things from the past.

I've learnt to know myself more though. I know im not an opened person, alias i'm an introvert.
But i can be extrovert, then again its only to people that i feel like they've accepted me.

Yesterday i met a friend (yahh bukan temen juga sih, tpi kenal aja) and she didnt smile at me or anything, but we've talked a couple of times. Emang sih tampangnya tuh tampang2 jutek gitu, maklum dehh.. tpi tetep aja, she didnt make the first move. yah udah i didnt say anything to her as well.. takut gondok.

And then, i've realize that if im in a big group of people, i'll *shrink*.
Honestly, gw tuh orang yg kadang2 bisa PD banget, but at other times i just feel like a nobody.
so yeah, i guess that's why im often quiet at times.

Trying to change though. But its just something that's been build up in you for ages, and it'll take a while to change. Process. That the key word.

lahh dari 9/11 kok jadi ttg diri gw sndiri..
nahh tuh satu hal lg ttg gw. suka tidak FOKUS! x)