winter Camp 2007

waaahhh,, akhirnya i have d chance to write about winter camp..

so what is winter camp?? Winter camp is what you call "retret" in indonesia.
Its a camp from the church where we fire up our spiritual heart again..

wel,, d theme for dis year's camp is --> "UNDIVIDED HEART" !!! yeeaayy!!

to be honest, i didnt actually prepare my heart for this camp.
siapin sih siapin yahh.. tpi ak kira Tuhan cuman bakal ngomong gitu2 doank.. ak tuh udah netapin dulu "pasti Tuhan mo negor aku ttg ini.. pasti masalah ini"
tpi gak bangeddd.. you could never out-guess God.. i mean, pikirannya Tuhan tuh gak kejangkau bangedd.. so, i admit i was totally wrong!!..

Hari pertama winter camp..
the first session : Encounter wit the Lord,, being a 2nd generation, i was always inside the border.. My family has always made sure that i was inside the safe border, so yeah.. here i am.. Made some mistakes, yeah thats for sure, but if there was a category of good people,, all would think that i belong there. Which honestly isnt true at all. That's why i do rebel at times. Cause yeah, you just cant be inside the border all the time. You have to experience an encounter with God, then we can definitely discern by ourself, we dont need other people watching over us and making sure that we're doing the right thing.
To be frank, i've always wanted to step into a higher level (wit God), but there is just something that's bothering me n ngehambat aku gak bisa maju. I dunno wat it is.. i thought it was bout my ex, but then again, masa sih itu lagi itu lagi.. kayaknya gak deh.. i've moved on, and God knows that. I've tried my best to just let it go. So yeah, there i was in camp just asking God to show me..and you know what,, God did tell me what was wrong..
well,, lets just say that i have some bitterness in me. bingo!
one door open,,, lets see what God has instore for me next.

Revival 1: Ps Mark McLandon was preaching tonight. and to be honest, i've heard him preach this before, so i thought "God, i know how the story goes, and i know what he's gonna pray about." and yeahh,, again i thought i was smarter than Him. Cause i remembered totally last year he preached the same stuff in mayapada, and in the altar call God just completely blew me over.. i was amazed, touched n changed then.. And i thought that it would be the same that night. But u know what, it was different. God spoke different stuff to mee.
This time it was forgiveness! lanjutan dari yg pertama.. =)

Session 2: Ps Dianne Manusama. Ohh this session just completely blew my head off. was amazed by the way God really searches my heart and He showed me things that's not right with me.
>> Indenial. yup,, i was totally indenial for the last 3 years probably. and yeah, i've forgive them.

session3: Girl session,, to be honest.. it was a great session.. telling girls to realize how valuable they are and not to just give everything away to guys. *yey!! go girl!!* and to love is to give, not to take. So if a guy loves you, they wont take ur virginity away,, they'd wait. And it taught me to really keep my standards high.. not to settle for second best. Kadang2 smua orang tuh suka nrimo2 ajaa.. padahal yg terbaik tuh tinggal selangkah lagi, tpi mereka udah langsung nyerah, and milih cowo yg didepan mata mereka. padahal tuh cowo bukan yg terbaik buat mereka. Emang gak ada yg namanya cowo terbaik, tpi maksudnya tuh cowo yg emang paling baik buat mereka. yg bisa ngertiin and yg pas deh. bukan berarti yg gak ada kekurangannya lohh.. but yeahh,, i know the best for me is just a step away. and im not worried you know,, cus i know im living for God, and He'll surely provide me with wat i need.
Well in this session i didnt really feel anything special besides the above.

Revival 2: Prophecy!! it was great.. got some cool prophecies. but im still practicing in doing it. although its kinda hard, but i know God's gonna use me!

Session 4: Sealing the commission. Saying yes, and taking a step!

I guess that's about it. It was a great camp, totally life changing. and i've felt lots of differences ever since. (good ones of course)

okayy,, that's not all..
saturday: Hook Up and Break up!!

sunday: Mercy over judgement!! this service just totally amazed me!!! pas altar call, jujur ajah aku tuh gak tau mau maju gara2 apa. udah gak kepikiran aja orang2 yg pernah nyakitin aku. and seingat gw, gw udah maapin mereka smuaa.. asli smuaaa dehh.. dari keluarga mpe yahh u know who.. tpi ntah knapa kyak ada dorongan aja buat maju.. so yeah, gw maju.. and you know what, Tuhan keren bangedd.. i ask God to show me.. show me the people that i have judged n hated before.. trus beneran dehhh Tuhan nunjukkin.. asli , klo bukan gara2 Tuhan gw tuh pasti udah gak inget... soalnya ud gw lupain.. jujur gw pernah benci banged ma orang (padahal anehnya gw blom ketemu dia) n gw pernah nyumpahin, n ngbayangin dy mati dll.. pokoknya parah bangedd dehhh.. yg bener2 bencii bangeddd.. n pengennya dy menderita ajaaa.. trus pas minggu Tuhan tuh beneran bukain.. n yeah,, minta ampun deh gw.. ngerasa bersalah banged.. padahal dy gak ada salah ama gw.. yahh mungkin ada, tpi yahh gak sepantasnya utk mati laaahh.. duhh kadang2 i think im so mean..


but yeahh it sure has been a great month!!..

Awesome July 2007!